in a summer switched on too long

dull yawning
drowsy procession
of intermission limbs
for motion

I see a gap widening
and we leak ourselves in,
fish in our hips for overheated

phones — there and then,
that’s when I catch news of you, feel
something in me

like a loose filling
falling out of the mouth
of the day.

surely you still burned
in that curious comet way —

your mood whipping out of the shade,
a scorpion circling your lip,

looking for you now in the tail of the crowd
looking wryly at me

but the ushers curve us away,
back to door three; candles blown out
to a rusty volcano glow.

we have boxed ourselves in our seats,
desperate gravity beneath us
my battery close to draining

these spots in my eyes dancing,
white dwarves climbing back
into the jaws of red giants

and already you are cooling,
a thin smoke memory
wisped between and beyond our palms.

we throw them together at the end,
hurl our enthusiasm over
a balcony’s edge

to where I imagine your wax
running away in ribbons

and I begin to spin,
I feel myself

and fall in

This is my last one I think – o/

stranger twice

stranger twice 
I saw you through glass 
late for a train, or so it looked: 
your face like the morning star
given good news, knowing nothing 
of night’s approach; of the shock 
of violence soon to be unleashed 
just moments from when 
moments would become 
before I turned fitfully out of sleep
and in the glow of the late night news 
      your face, 
too distant now like the morning, 
your stars raining glass, 
the last train dragged away
into the bewildered dawn,

horizon collapsing
on new honeyed earth.

rue de varenne

rue de varenne

taken back to the secret place,
that corner of Rodin's woods
where statues begin to thin out

or were swallowed by moss,
cooled by an absence of tourists
who never stray from the path

or their first language.

whatever was forged there
is frozen; why dig up the
heartbeat of a distant day,

buried with his ceramic
in the phantom fossil record?
the original still thumps in me.

felt as though left long enough
alone and they'd chain the gates,

lock our fate in some
out of hours embrace -
room for two more here,

you said - already your roots
unfurling around ankles
into the discovered earth,

Balzac bodies burning,
busy like new bronze.

8am at melbourne pathology

8am at melbourne pathology

and already it's over,
the nurse and needle withdrawn,
your forehead hot with foreboding,
a whisper in your ribs that
something has been forgotten,

and though you tell yourself
'don't look', you spy the vials.

and you know of no-one
who can say with certainty
that they've ever seen a thought,

who can prove without doubt
that thoughts might be borne not
by brain but by blood;
the sort of temporarily rich

blush of thoughts that could
be drawn out of you and
           might look back - 

might breathe fog onto test tube
glass, as if to savour the impossible
sight of you fading into life,
before you escape August

and ward, wander
into unimaginable


An unpublished poem from 2015/16

common tongues

common tongues

A day somewhere in my twenties. We are
cocooned for a brief moment in a lift shaft
yet somehow the call makes it through.

I know it is bad news because it is midday here
in Melbourne but my father is speaking French.
In this sense I understand without comprehending.

He joins his brothers and sister and mother
in their timezone soon after.

We return years later. My cousin laughs at my
accent but has no English. My father is jetlagged
but fully immersed: he accidentally translates
his mother’s tongue into itself.

This is one of the few times he has even used
it with me. It takes several more trips til I can
visit without him.

My grip on the language improves until people
figure I learnt it from him and not novels.
He learnt his English the same way. I think it’s

ironic that the modern Australian assumes things
should come easy instead of through hard work.
Sometimes I dream in my father’s tongue
but never with him.

Today my father is waking from a long dream
in hospital. He speaks instinctively in Australian
with an accent I can’t hear. This surprises the
nurses but to me it’s just his voice. His brothers
say his French now has an Australian accent. I

hear this better because I rarely hear it.
My mother’s French accent is perfect but she only
learnt the present tense. I don’t think this prevents
her from dreaming about the past.

I send an email back to his mother and his
sister and brothers. For me it is always easier
to write than to speak, no matter the language.

I see a tiny grammatical error after I hit Send.
They understand entirely. I have learnt to speak
with enough mistakes to make myself clear despite

them, or clearly enough about them. In the end
that is all a voice is. And in the end there is no
voice, just common tongue.


Shortlisted for the New Shoots Poetry Prize

I was shortlisted for the New Shoots Poetry Prize 2016. The theme was for a plant of the author’s choosing. Mine was the grape vine :)

Below is the poem, since I don’t think it’s getting published anywhere by the organisers…

vitis vinifera

we don't differ wildly,
  grounded but growing up quickly,
tree climbers clawing for the sun
  chasing that eureka moment

and sometimes prevented: bent back,
  tied down or shuddered sideways,
a slavish twist to your cordons -
  'trained' too generous a word.

wonder were I to dig my toes in
  as beachgoers do at shoreline,
would they uncurl and plunge thirsty
  under waves of hostile season,

delve the dry depths for new vigour;
  burrow and blush all Cambrian
shades of this bedrock.
  would I, too, burst my buds in throes

of springtime swollen - green skin yearning
  to be stolen by hot veraison days;
feel my fruit soften to sugar
  when acids ask to dance

til they tumble into fist, crushed
  by human, harvest or happenstance
- ink bleeding between knuckles
  into barrique and sleep,

then    to glass
  and into mouths
  and into minds
  and mornings.